After the pre-recorded interviews with hospital employees in Los Angeles and a household that was pressured to carry a funeral for his or her matriarch in a parking zone was proven to viewers, Sidner turned overcome by emotion on-air, choking again tears.
“This is the 10th hospital that I have been in and to see the way that these families have to live after this and the heartache that goes so far and so wide — it’s really hard to take,” she advised CNN’s Alisyn Camerota.
Sidner went on to say “no family” must be going by means of what she has witnessed in her reporting.
“Please listen to what this family is saying,” she pleaded with viewers. “Don’t let this be you, do whatever you can to keep this from killing your family members and your neighbors and your friends and your teachers and your doctors and your firefighters. All of these people are here to help you, but you have to do your part.”
Sidner later penned a piece for CNN explaining additional “Why [she] lost it on live TV.”
“I felt raw and exposed and embarrassed all at once,” she wrote. “I have long been taught as a woman ‘never let them see you cry’ — not in public and especially not at work. But I did that Tuesday. I cried. I couldn’t control my tears. I couldn’t use my words.”
The reporter wrote that what moved her to tears was rage, particularly towards those that “won’t take our ills seriously and those who are actively fighting against the truth” when so many households, just like the one whose story she shared Tuesday, are grieving and struggling in a pandemic that has disproportionately impacted communities of shade and the nation’s most susceptible.
“When you saw me cry, you witnessed my rage,” she stated. “I care about my country. I worry about the new and old ills facing us. And I feel like my country is on life support.”
I’ve been requested considerably rudely why repost or write about this if I used to be embarrassed. This is why:
It feels higher to me to be trustworthy & write about it then cover within the shadow of disgrace. This is my course of. We all have alternative ways of coping with it.
Writing brings me consolation
— Sara Sidner (@sarasidnerCNN) January 13, 2021
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